Sunday Night Notes… Episode 2.

This is the time I share my most vulnerable thoughts as an entrepreneur. For years, this day when the starts to set, my mind and heart begin to race. 

Am I doing enough?

What am I doing?

Did I DO enough this week?

And I wanted a practice that allows me to write it down & allow it to release from my body.

Here we go…

3 days ago I was sitting at lunch and got a text from my dad. Missing you. 

And out of my instinct, I said, "Come to Denver to see me. I will be there for 2 days. 

And to my surprise, he said yes. 

He said yes. He said yes. He said yes, gulp.

Now what.

Whoa, this has never happened before.

So much alone time with him, all to myself.

For as far back as I can remember, I have always wanted my dad to pick me to go anywhere. He would say, “who wants to go to the grocery store?”

I would jump up and say, “Me!”

"Who wants to ride with me to pick up your brother?”

“Me!”

One of my favorite stories, is when he would get home from work, he would say, “You make the best iced water. Can you make me one and bring it to me?”

I would run as fast as I could to make it for him. You see my dad is an entrepreneur. Like 50+ years an entrepreneur.

So much of what I do, I realize now, is from watching him to do it.

I could spend this time asking him a million questions about how to get this entrepreneur thing right.

The pressure is real to want to perform for him. To be good.

But it isn't what I feel is calling me to do.

I need to slow down, way down, like a complete FULL STOP.

I can see it in his eyes. We only have this moment to be together.

And all I want to say is how much I love him & wish we could live forever.

I want to say it LOUD & CLEAR.

I LOVE YOU DADDY! And I want to never let you go.

And although we don't see each other every day, I carry you around in my heart and my spirit every single day.

He reminds me that I am not an entrepreneur.

I am a person.

I am a human.

I was made from love.

For the next 48 hours, I am available to be the girl who just loves her dad & has to do ZERO for him to be any prouder of me.

I ALLOW MYSELF TO SEE NEW.

Every second I get a new moment.

And I give myself permission to be loved back.

God. Thank you for this miracle of love & deep connection.

Because being an entrepreneur isn't all about business or logistics. It is about my soul, which is guiding me to breath and let the love in…

Now off to sleep.